Love Ain't

CUNNINLYNGUISTS - Love Ain't
(feat. Tonedeff)

[Tonedeff]
Love ain't for the faint of heart
Start Training, this game is hard
And arduous, you're gonna play in the dark like when it rains in the park
You're hardly conscious of the stains and scars, enabling your partly clouded logic
To pay to impart bliss with arrangements of chocolates
Now, you're working yourself out the same as when you strain with a nautilus
And you're willing to embrace pain facing sustained negative consequence
If nothing you say when in love is embedded with common sense
Then, do you really regret when you've shredded your promises?
Now, I've tested the waters, kid. Sipped it; rippled the pond a bit
Visits have been abolished, and this shit's killing my confidence
Is this filling your conscience when distance is an accomplishment?
If you miss chicks when they're around, the phrase "Let's quit" isn't an option
You best fix whatever's wrong and just move on and get on with it
Cause, You'll catch bigger fish in the sea if you manage not to drown in it
It's sad, but proud or not, most your standards go down a notch
When loneliness drinks at the bar you set too high
Cause, It isn't really my time, is it? Shit...I just found the watch
But hearing the bell toll for me twice a day, has me fearing my grandfather clock
And I can't die without trying. My hands tied in knots
Knowing that I'll never learn to brave the waves if I stand by the docks
Love is hampered by thought, if you can handle the prospect of
Death - it's as massive a shock. And To intellects, it's a fuckin' smack in the crotch
It's a cancer that rots your soul, tosses demons off of the road
Just use caution and know, that, love ain't nothing but a loss of control
Off then, we go

[Chorus]

[Deacon the Villian]
Love'll have you nervous, doing stupid shit on purpose
brain out of service, words slurred when you blurt shit
studderin', utterin' non-sensical shit in your verses
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feeling like a shirtless, 4-breasted woman in a circus
furthurly trying to gap an unfillable void
because of parents never transfering that unbillical joy
so girls create a false world of filling on boys
exploited, guys playing with her heart like her feelings are toys
but when you have it.. there's nothing like it, you get excited
seeking those who provide it, on phones talking to psychics
some fear it... spend their entire lives trying to fight it
living in a confusing Hayes, like they're grooving to Isaac
it ain't the end of the rainbow with a treasure chest and a map
it ain't easily learnable with definitions in tact
it can ride your train of though and demolitions your tracks
hittin' and bullwhippin you, leavin' them slits in your back
but i've been a lucky one.. loving parents, loving friends
but I still spend alot of my life loving sin
but I ain't a genious on it, I can only pretend
cause over all it's an emotion I can not comprehend.. it's love

[Chorus]

[Kno]
Love ain't the basis for action
In a nation of addicts pacing and waiting for seconds of satisfaction
Where the word itself is only fashioned in fits of passion
Hand in hand with animalistic orgasmic reaction
and the past isn't felt as a match made in hell
But rather its held as a latter day meld
Of common mistakes and nice intentions
But when false love retention is simply vice invention
Its only right to mention the fights you get in
Nightly visions of these Tina and Ike revisions
So Whats Love really Got To Do With It?
From prude women to stool pidgeons in soup kitchens
The truth isn't as eloquent so be intelligent
Getting caught out of your element just for the hell of it's irrelevant
And that word'll fit like a glove if you don't get right
Now live your life for the love or stop

[Chorus]

Real Speak...

These two videos were my inspiration to write and perform spoken word. Dana Gilmore is amazingly honest and delivers poetry in a comedic and rhythmic fashion that touches the cores of all women who've been done wrong by a man.

Best quotes: "I had a n*gga that lied so much I don't even know his real name."

"Cry me a river n*gga, cry me a sea, but that's the last time I love a n*gga that ain't got no love for me"

Best quote: "All this for an average n*gga doin' average n*gga shit, like talkin' out the side of his neck and thinkin' with his dick, but I must admit he's the one I wanted to commit so either I wasn't livin' up to my potential, or I was just an average chick"

FUCK THIS!!!

Legitimately, this has already been a whack day but the bullshit drama that is going on at this moment is the icing on the cake. Wow...I guess this is what I get for trying to help people out. I'm looking crazy, dealing with crazies and actually starting to go crazy. I DGAF about the editing of a porn movie - really I don't. I never knew trying to do two people favors would turn into a paranoid text-a-thon of nonsense. Besides that, my Droid is possessed, calling and texting people by itself! I was watching it happen. I even recorded it from my blackberry so people didn't think I was a complete mess. I'm going to youtube it too, believe that. This day has swirled up so many emotions I'm not even sure what to think anymore. Was on the phone for hours with someone I'd never spoken to before but who is actually deeply connected to me in a strange way. This conversation had me chain smoking...searching for truth...but what do I make of truths I already suspected? What should I make of this feeling of wanting to do NOTHING? Part of me is thankful for confirmation, sad from betrayal, mad for pulling me back into the quicksand I barely pulled myself out of... then part of me wants to flip out but then there's most of me that really doesn't care what the truth is...I think deep down I've known for so long but it never changed how I felt. I feel like I have a sociopath imprinted on my soul and no matter what, even if we don't speak or see one another AT ALL, I know the bond is never broken. I'm not living in a fantasy world and I'm not naive. Shit just runs so deep. Plus we been through the worst of the worst together already it's like nothing fazes me. Ridiculously Ride-or-Die, us against the world till the wheels fall off...right??? I need to free myself immediately. I 500% need to get this tattoo covered up ASAP. Even though I can never see it, I love it. The way it looks when I catch a glimpse and the security of knowing he's always got my back. The only thing I ever put on my body and never regretted it even once. But FUCK THAT, I'm going to cover it with what means the most to me in this world - my FAMILY! How can we be written with the same ink in the same paragraph on the same page but be published in two totally different books??? I'm the kind of person who would give anything I have to help someone else - but when it comes to family, I'd go without to make sure their taken care of, so I'm dumbfounded how someone could spin such vicious webs of horror around their immediate blood, and their own mother! Seriously, wtf? Why lie to me? We're supposed to BE family! 

I'm sick of taking care of everyone, worrying about their problems, wanting to make their lives easier while making mine harder in the process. My mother is the exact same way. I inherited this curse from her. It's like we're addicted to helping - different from the ability to say no - we offer, we want to and we're only happy when someone else is happy. Otherwise it's a constant race to do more, be more, care more. But it's when you find that one person(s) that is never happy, literally impossible to satisfy - that's when this trait becomes dangerous. For my mom, that person is my dad. If you know me then you know who that person is for me. You're probably thinking that we were genetically designed this way, like "Oiiiing do for you"...not the case. I feel like I should want someone to want to take care of me for a change but I have a real problem with allowing others to do anything for me. (With the exception of my mom of course but she's got this problem as well so let's exclude her for arguments sake. lol) I guess my goal should be to care about myself at least half as much as I care about all these people around me and then maybe my life would be richer. I don't need a man to make me whole. I just need to put ME on my own priority list. I need a vacation. I need a back rub. I need sex. lol I need to get off this blog!