You Are My Enemy - Hopsin

[Verse 1]Yo, I work hard and barely get paid
How did I get stuck on this page
I've been starving for like six days
I should go and get a switch blade
And try to find out where this bitch stays
I'm a lit flame, what's your future I predict pain, slit veins, squished brains I'm just saying
Locked in the basement causes madness and errors
All I have to talk to is the fucking man in the mirror
But you never saw it from my perspective
The craft that I perfected got rejected
And thrown out the window with no proper exit
I was humble, now I'm not as pleasant
I'm dropping wreckage on your shady dynasty, bitch I'am not to mess with
You made me think it was impossible that I could blow and get a little money from selling records for copping clothes
Let's talk about the 42 records that Hopsin sold
You sleeping on a fucking pot of gold, so listen close

[Hook]Don't you ever call me again
I'm not your buddy
I'm not your pal
Right here is where it ends, ends, ends, sorry for you
I'm not your buddy
I'm not your pal
You are my enemy

[Verse 2]Yo, since when are buddies posed to be so mean
They must be hating the air that we both breathe
Shit we used to be tighter than emo jeans
The day I boss, stand back and watched the c-notes gleam
I know you see me blowing up, growing up it disturbs you
When my words move fanatics, and in return you gotta post little blogs on the internet
Talking bout I've been erect, my career is wack I'll never benefit
I hope you die a bitter death
Then lie in a graveyard in regret
Where all of the foul niggas rest
You hating cause you witnessing the best
So just confess
You shattered our friendship and you can't fix the mess
I'm not a bit impressed by nothing you've done
My name's stuck on your tongue
Motherfucker you sprung
Give it up move on
You've taken this shit too far
You mad cause you unsatisfied with who you are bitch

[Hook]Don't you ever call me again
I'm not your buddy
I'm not your pal
Right here is where it ends, ends, ends, sorry for you
I'm not your buddy
I'm not your pal
You are my enemy

[Verse 3]You were the love I used to see in my dreams
But when we met how come shit can never be what it seem
I was pleased with the things we did together, it's like we was a team
But you would change when I flee from the scene
Around me you were pure hearted, loving and caring
And when we hung out you'd even brighten up your appearance
You fooled me like you were smart, cute and something to stare
But you was fronting little bitch, now I'm struggling to bare it
Because you were the opposite of what you told me you don't do
Drugs, one night stands and you know that it's so true
You saw my heart exposed, grabbed a hold and then broke through
Hoes are just so rude, fucking bogus and cold tooOh but there's no dude you would let interfere
With our love, that's the exact shit you said in my ear
When you arrived in my world, I thought heaven was near
But time made it very clear that the devil was here
So fuck you

[Hook]Don't you ever call me again
I'm not your buddy
I'm not your pal
Right here is where it ends, ends, ends, sorry for you
I'm not your buddy
I'm not your pal
You are my enemy

"An Ode to My Ex's" Clarification...

First I would just like to say that my video montage titled, "An Ode to My Ex's" was fueled by a couple shots of Kraken, a funny quote on Facebook (which lead me to a fabulous page of even MORE funny quotes) and my iTunes shuffle playing some great man-hating songs. In no way was this video about or directed towards anyone in particular. I'm actually not even having any boy drama at the moment. I simply found some new quotes that were cracking me up and decided to get creative. My mom told me that the video was hurtful. I watched it again in the morning just to be sure and to be honest, I STILL laughed!! I can't help it! Perhaps I have a sick sense of humor but anyone that really knows me or has been involved romantically with me KNOWS that the quote "I Never gave a damn and still don't give a fuck" is far from the truth. I probably care too much! That is one of my favorite quotes as is the picture of the tissue box. Hahahaha Part of me wants to make more videos because I have so many songs that I wanted to cram into this one but didn't have enough quotes to stretch out. Although I think I'll refrain as to not hurt any more feelings thus having to babysit more emotions. In closing, IF you took this clip personally or thought it was a personal attack on you then I have one thing to say (in the words of Carly Simon) "I bet you think this song is about you, don't you, don't you, don't you????" JUST KIDDING! What I meant to say was, I'm sorry! :-) Still original....

And for those who missed it, check it out here:

An Ode to My Ex's
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Take A Shot for Me

DRAKE

I can see it in your eyes, you're angry

Regret got shit on what you're feeling now

Mad cause he ain't like me

Oh you mad cause nobody ever did it like me

All the care I would take, all the love that we made

Now you're trying to find somebody to replace what I gave to you

It's a shame you didn't keep it: Alisha, Catya

I know that you gon hear this: I'm the man

Yeah I said it! Bitch I'm the man

Don't you forget it

The way you walk, that's me

The way you talk, that's me

The way you've got your hair up, did you forget that's me?

And the voice in the speaker right now, that's me, that's me

And the voice in your ear, that's me

Can't you see that I made it? Yeah I made it

First I made you who you are, then I made it

And you're wasted with your ladies

Yeah I'm the reason why you always getting faded



Take a shot for me



Ok look, I'm honest

Girl I can't lie, I miss you

You and the music were the only things that I commit to

I never cheated, for the record, back when I was with you

But you believe in everything but me girl, I don't get you

She says I know you changed, I never see you

Cause you're always busy doing things

I really wish she had a different way of viewing things

I think the city that we're from just kinda ruined things

It's such a small place: not much to do but talk and listen

The men are jealous and the women all in competition

And now your friends telling you stories that you often misinterpret

And taint all your images of "Mr. Perfect"

I could tell that you been crying all night, drinking all summer

Praying for your happiness, hope that you recover

This is one I know you hated when you heard it

And it's worse because you know that I deserve it



Take a shot for me



May your neighbors respect you

Trouble neglect you, angels protect you

And heaven accept you..

Make Me Proud

[Drake]
I like a woman with a future and a past
A little attitude prob all good it'll make the shit last
Don't make it too easy girl, don't take it too fast
Yeah, that's it, right there, that's it
Do it just like that
Only you could do it just like that
And I love it when your hair's still wet
Cause you just took a shower
Running on a trail, millioni salad
Sounds so smart, like you graduated college
Like you went to yale, but you probably went to Howard know you
Weekend in miami, tryina study by the pool
Couple things do, but you always get it done
Mighta been a time when I loved her too
But you take that away, you always been the one
One, I wonder why the moon looks nice girl
Maybe it's just right for the night
You said niggas come home, too strong girl
They want you in their life as a wife
That's why you wanna have no sex
Why you wanna protest, why you wanna fight for your right
Cause you don't love them boys, pussy run anything
Fuck that noise

[Hook]
I know things get hard
But girl you got it, girl you got it there you go
Can't you tell by how they're looking at you everywhere you go
Wondering what's on your mind, it must be hard to be that fine, when all these muthafuckas wanna waste your time
It's just amazing, girl, and all I can say is... 

I'm so, I'm so, I'm so, I'm so, I'm so
I'm so proud of you
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so, I'm so, I'm so
I'm so proud of you
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so, I'm so, I'm so
I'm so proud of you
Everything's adding up, you've been through hell and back
That's why you're bad as fuck and you

[Nicki Minaj]
B-b-b-bet I am
All of them bitches I'm better then
Mansions in Malibu babblin

And I never mention everything I dabble in
And I always buy? slow when I'm straddlin'
And my shit's so wet you gotta paddle in
Gotta ro-ro-row, gotta row ya boat
It's Pink Friday... and OVO
Popped out, I'm the realest deal, best legal team so the deals is ill
It's Mac, OPI and a fragrance too
Apparal, I'm dominating every avenue
Couple stone, good view, lil gravel too
Gotta pay for the entourage travel too
Cause I'm fli-fli-flying high
Aint got time to talk, just Hi and bye

Baby you can ask me to take a break
I'll give it all away, don't care what the people say
I'll be a million, billion, trillion miles away

He asked my sign, I said a Sag'
I'm a star, Sheriff badge, 
What's the point? If I'm guardin'
Double D up hoes, Dolly Parton

[Drake]
I know things get hard
But girl you got it, girl you got it there you go
Can't you tell by how they're looking at you everywhere you go
Wondering what's on your mind, it must be hard to be that fine, when all these muthafuckas wanna waste your time
It's just amazing, girl, and all I can say is... 

I'm so, I'm so, I'm so, I'm so, I'm so
I'm so proud of you
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so, I'm so, I'm so
I'm so proud of you
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so, I'm so, I'm so
I'm so proud of you
Everything's adding up, you've been through hell and back
That's why you're bad as fuck and you know you are

I'm so, I'm so, I'm so, I'm so, I'm so
I'm so proud of you
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so, I'm so, I'm so
I'm so proud of you
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so, I'm so, I'm so
I'm so proud of you
Everything's adding up, you've been through hell and back
That's why you're bad as fuck and you know you are

Love Ain't

CUNNINLYNGUISTS - Love Ain't
(feat. Tonedeff)

[Tonedeff]
Love ain't for the faint of heart
Start Training, this game is hard
And arduous, you're gonna play in the dark like when it rains in the park
You're hardly conscious of the stains and scars, enabling your partly clouded logic
To pay to impart bliss with arrangements of chocolates
Now, you're working yourself out the same as when you strain with a nautilus
And you're willing to embrace pain facing sustained negative consequence
If nothing you say when in love is embedded with common sense
Then, do you really regret when you've shredded your promises?
Now, I've tested the waters, kid. Sipped it; rippled the pond a bit
Visits have been abolished, and this shit's killing my confidence
Is this filling your conscience when distance is an accomplishment?
If you miss chicks when they're around, the phrase "Let's quit" isn't an option
You best fix whatever's wrong and just move on and get on with it
Cause, You'll catch bigger fish in the sea if you manage not to drown in it
It's sad, but proud or not, most your standards go down a notch
When loneliness drinks at the bar you set too high
Cause, It isn't really my time, is it? Shit...I just found the watch
But hearing the bell toll for me twice a day, has me fearing my grandfather clock
And I can't die without trying. My hands tied in knots
Knowing that I'll never learn to brave the waves if I stand by the docks
Love is hampered by thought, if you can handle the prospect of
Death - it's as massive a shock. And To intellects, it's a fuckin' smack in the crotch
It's a cancer that rots your soul, tosses demons off of the road
Just use caution and know, that, love ain't nothing but a loss of control
Off then, we go

[Chorus]

[Deacon the Villian]
Love'll have you nervous, doing stupid shit on purpose
brain out of service, words slurred when you blurt shit
studderin', utterin' non-sensical shit in your verses
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feeling like a shirtless, 4-breasted woman in a circus
furthurly trying to gap an unfillable void
because of parents never transfering that unbillical joy
so girls create a false world of filling on boys
exploited, guys playing with her heart like her feelings are toys
but when you have it.. there's nothing like it, you get excited
seeking those who provide it, on phones talking to psychics
some fear it... spend their entire lives trying to fight it
living in a confusing Hayes, like they're grooving to Isaac
it ain't the end of the rainbow with a treasure chest and a map
it ain't easily learnable with definitions in tact
it can ride your train of though and demolitions your tracks
hittin' and bullwhippin you, leavin' them slits in your back
but i've been a lucky one.. loving parents, loving friends
but I still spend alot of my life loving sin
but I ain't a genious on it, I can only pretend
cause over all it's an emotion I can not comprehend.. it's love

[Chorus]

[Kno]
Love ain't the basis for action
In a nation of addicts pacing and waiting for seconds of satisfaction
Where the word itself is only fashioned in fits of passion
Hand in hand with animalistic orgasmic reaction
and the past isn't felt as a match made in hell
But rather its held as a latter day meld
Of common mistakes and nice intentions
But when false love retention is simply vice invention
Its only right to mention the fights you get in
Nightly visions of these Tina and Ike revisions
So Whats Love really Got To Do With It?
From prude women to stool pidgeons in soup kitchens
The truth isn't as eloquent so be intelligent
Getting caught out of your element just for the hell of it's irrelevant
And that word'll fit like a glove if you don't get right
Now live your life for the love or stop

[Chorus]

Real Speak...

These two videos were my inspiration to write and perform spoken word. Dana Gilmore is amazingly honest and delivers poetry in a comedic and rhythmic fashion that touches the cores of all women who've been done wrong by a man.

Best quotes: "I had a n*gga that lied so much I don't even know his real name."

"Cry me a river n*gga, cry me a sea, but that's the last time I love a n*gga that ain't got no love for me"

Best quote: "All this for an average n*gga doin' average n*gga shit, like talkin' out the side of his neck and thinkin' with his dick, but I must admit he's the one I wanted to commit so either I wasn't livin' up to my potential, or I was just an average chick"

FUCK THIS!!!

Legitimately, this has already been a whack day but the bullshit drama that is going on at this moment is the icing on the cake. Wow...I guess this is what I get for trying to help people out. I'm looking crazy, dealing with crazies and actually starting to go crazy. I DGAF about the editing of a porn movie - really I don't. I never knew trying to do two people favors would turn into a paranoid text-a-thon of nonsense. Besides that, my Droid is possessed, calling and texting people by itself! I was watching it happen. I even recorded it from my blackberry so people didn't think I was a complete mess. I'm going to youtube it too, believe that. This day has swirled up so many emotions I'm not even sure what to think anymore. Was on the phone for hours with someone I'd never spoken to before but who is actually deeply connected to me in a strange way. This conversation had me chain smoking...searching for truth...but what do I make of truths I already suspected? What should I make of this feeling of wanting to do NOTHING? Part of me is thankful for confirmation, sad from betrayal, mad for pulling me back into the quicksand I barely pulled myself out of... then part of me wants to flip out but then there's most of me that really doesn't care what the truth is...I think deep down I've known for so long but it never changed how I felt. I feel like I have a sociopath imprinted on my soul and no matter what, even if we don't speak or see one another AT ALL, I know the bond is never broken. I'm not living in a fantasy world and I'm not naive. Shit just runs so deep. Plus we been through the worst of the worst together already it's like nothing fazes me. Ridiculously Ride-or-Die, us against the world till the wheels fall off...right??? I need to free myself immediately. I 500% need to get this tattoo covered up ASAP. Even though I can never see it, I love it. The way it looks when I catch a glimpse and the security of knowing he's always got my back. The only thing I ever put on my body and never regretted it even once. But FUCK THAT, I'm going to cover it with what means the most to me in this world - my FAMILY! How can we be written with the same ink in the same paragraph on the same page but be published in two totally different books??? I'm the kind of person who would give anything I have to help someone else - but when it comes to family, I'd go without to make sure their taken care of, so I'm dumbfounded how someone could spin such vicious webs of horror around their immediate blood, and their own mother! Seriously, wtf? Why lie to me? We're supposed to BE family! 

I'm sick of taking care of everyone, worrying about their problems, wanting to make their lives easier while making mine harder in the process. My mother is the exact same way. I inherited this curse from her. It's like we're addicted to helping - different from the ability to say no - we offer, we want to and we're only happy when someone else is happy. Otherwise it's a constant race to do more, be more, care more. But it's when you find that one person(s) that is never happy, literally impossible to satisfy - that's when this trait becomes dangerous. For my mom, that person is my dad. If you know me then you know who that person is for me. You're probably thinking that we were genetically designed this way, like "Oiiiing do for you"...not the case. I feel like I should want someone to want to take care of me for a change but I have a real problem with allowing others to do anything for me. (With the exception of my mom of course but she's got this problem as well so let's exclude her for arguments sake. lol) I guess my goal should be to care about myself at least half as much as I care about all these people around me and then maybe my life would be richer. I don't need a man to make me whole. I just need to put ME on my own priority list. I need a vacation. I need a back rub. I need sex. lol I need to get off this blog!